HINT HINT

‘Oh, look, a heart’, I pointed out the small foam heart in my tiny black coffee cup.

‘Maybe that’s a sign that you’ll get a boyfriend’, he looked at me with a big smile, ‘so I can have a stepdad. Hint, hint.’

‘One that lives in Austin and not across the world’ he continued. ‘I don’t want you spending thousands of dollars on a failed relationship again.’

I know he wants that more than anything and I wish I could give him that. He has told me many times about how he doesn’t want to be an only child as he feels here. Being separated from his sisters is not easy since he grew up with them and lived with them until a year ago. When he decided he no longer wished to be subjected to the rage of his stepmother who wanted nothing to do with him.

‘Also, you don’t have to be lonely’, he continued as he finished his coffee. It was 07,45 and he should have been leaving for school. I also had to leave for my temp job.

I love our morning talks over breakfast, and I never know what to expect from an almost teenager. My son has his own thoughts and wishes. He has a great heart and wants the best for me as I want for him. But some things cannot be rushed. Certainly not something as important as finding someone who will be a good fit for us.

The right time will come. For now, I need to focus on myself, my son, and making a successful future for us without having to rely on anyone else.